Thursday, October 24, 2013
Time, don't be too much in a hurry!
This photo does not have anything to do with today's post but I'm posting it for lack of something better.
I must admit I have been delinquent with my blogging these past few months. Honestly, it's not only with blogging I've been delinquent at, but also with taking pictures. I don't know why or how it happened. It's just that suddenly I don't look for "things" to capture anymore.
We are currently planning two trips out of the country. I have told you how excited I was about the Hongkong trip. It's our first family trip outside the country. Everyone is going this time so that makes it exciting. I was thinking of the trip earlier today, I got all excited about it again and then suddenly, I felt sad.
I wanted the months to hurry but I realized I shouldn't want them to hurry. The days are passing by so fast as it is. My parents are getting older and older. My husband and I are ageing so fast, Toots is growing up so fast and too soon. I am afraid of all these changes and of all the changes that they would eventually bring.
I want to keep my parents with me. I want Ruel and me to stay young and strong enough to work for our family. I miss my little boy. I miss his innocence and his joyful chatter. I miss his sweetness. I realize that I spent too much time with other things when I should have spent time savoring each moment I had with him when he was little. Today I look at him and I try to see the chubby little boy I used to know and I cannot find him. He has changed so much, not just in terms of his baby fat but also in other aspects of his personality. I don't want the months to pass by so quickly. I still want to enjoy Toots while he is still young. Soon, he will be in college, graduate, have a career, fall in love, get married and I won't be able to see him as often as I do today. And that scares me.
When I was younger I never felt like this. I think this feeling is one proof I am indeed getting older. It's true what they say, "Time is our greatest enemy."