Friday, April 7, 2017

Twenty-third Letter to Sofia


My darling Sofia,

You'll be turning two in a couple of weeks.  Even though you are in Heaven I am still excited to celebrate your birthday.  I want it to be special just like last year because you are special and I want
people to know that you matter.

Daddy and I always talk about you.  Sometimes he talks about his plans for you as if you were still around to make his plans come true.   Most of the time, he smells my ears and imagines it's your ears he's smelling.  It's weird, I know.  But in a way, it makes him a little happier.

It's been almost two years but until now I do not understand what happened.  I still don't understand why you were taken from us so soon.  I still don't understand why God gave me a gift He never meant for me to open.  And the sad thing is that I don't think I will ever understand.  Daddy mentioned the other day how you sighed in his arms and I realized that I never even felt you breathe.  It makes me so sad that I never even really felt you except for that time I rubbed my cheek against yours  and kissed you.   Knowing that that memory is slowly fading with time makes me even sadder.  I want so much to remember how your skin felt against mine but the remembrance of it is slowly fading away.

Despite the fact that it's getting harder for me to remember how your skin felt like, I want you to always remember that you will never be forgotten.  You will always be remembered.  You will always be loved, my sweet baby girl.  Mommy will always keep you in her heart.

I love you always, Sofie!  Flying hugs and kisses to Heaven...

Love,
Mommy

Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Midweek Currently


It's the middle of the week and I suddenly find myself wanting to do a Currently post so here I am!

Thinking:  of the two books I want to write

               One of them is a non-fiction book about my first love, which is customer service.  The other is a romantic novel.  I've written so many beginnings and middles of romantic novels but I have never ended one.  Hopefully, when I get to write this one, I will be able to finish it, if only just so I can have something that's finished (published or otherwise).

Craving: for a bubble bath
     
             I recently stayed in a hotel and had what I only get to have in a hotel -- a long and warm relaxing bubble bath.  Sadly, we don't have a bathtub at home so I only get to take long showers.  :(

Wearing: a light yellow v neck blouse with 3/4 sleeves, brownish/gray pants and flats
           

Feeling: out of focus
            I should just be thinking of school and my business at the moment.  I cannot afford to lose sight of my goal but these thoughts of writing two books and not even knowing which one to write first is making me lose my focus and momentum.

Loving:  a particular teleserye shown every night at 9:30  on channel 7
 
            This light romantic comedy makes me feel young again.  I am neither a fan of the heroine nor   any of her possible leading men (there are four of them), but I just like the story and how it brings back memories of being young and falling in love.

Wishing: I was thinner.

             I think I look a lot older because of my weight so I want to lose some pounds.
Unfortunately, although one of my New Year's resolutions was to exercise and lose 20 pounds this year, I have not done any real physical activity except walking around in the classroom.


So that's what my currently is all about.  I really hope I can focus more and get back on track when it comes to my goals.

Sunday, February 12, 2017

10-Year Service Awardee

It's been more than a month since my last post.  I miss blogging but it seems I just can't find time to do it like I used to, specially now that I have another business.  It's been taking a lot of my after-school free time.

I just wanted to share with everyone something that happened in January.  It isn't really big but it was an important milestone in my career as a teacher.  On the 25th of January, I was one of the faculty members who were given service awards.  Dressed in our barongs, we were presented to the students one by one.  I was a ten-year service awardee and I never imagined that I would feel the way I did during the celebration of the eucharist which preceded the awarding.  Mixed feelings of gratitude, humility and joy enveloped me.  I was so thankful to God for blessing me with so much.  Without these blessings I do not think I would have lasted in the teaching profession for this long.




I do not know how long I can still stay in the same institution or in the same profession.  With God's will I am planning to follow a different path after a year.  In any case, may God continue to bless me that I may  continue to be a beacon of light wherever I may be.

To God be the glory!

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

The Holidays, 2016 in Review and 2017 Goals in One

Happy 2017 everyone!

I've been meaning to post something before the New Year but my schedule did not allow me to do so. I do not know what happened last holiday season but despite the fact that our school break came three days earlier, my schedule was more hectic than usual.   I actually was able to put up our tree ten days before Christmas whereas I usually make sure  it is up on the first of December.

I brought home around 180 exam papers to check and I still have ten unchecked papers.  I still have five gifts yet to wrap!  Please don't judge me now.  I know I am bad and I feel bad enough!

I am proud of the simple feast I laid out in front of my family though.

Noche Buena feast menu:

puttanesca
buttered garlic prawns with chili
macaroni salad
ham
leche flan (Mom cooked this) and buko salad for dessert

Media Noche or New Year's Eve was spent with Ruel's family in Bulacan so I didn't have to cook.  I still made it a point to prepare something though because I was not used to not having anything special to eat after the festivities. :)   We had a family get together on my mother's side the following day.

Overall, I enjoyed every bit of the holidays, although everything flew by like a breeze.  I am thankful to 2016 for many things like family gatherings, dates with my husband, the best Mother's Day celebration I've had so far, going on a pilgrimage to churches with holy doors, my son's moving up from junior high, finally getting to watch Les Miserables, celebrating Sofia's first birthday, attending our high school jubilee homecoming, finding a new friend who is so much like me, celebrating our fourth wedding anniversary in Tagaytay, passing the licensure exam to become a financial advisor, getting a chance to write and direct a mini-play, receiving so many prizes during the institutional Christmas party,  celebrating Christmas and New Year with all the people I love best and so many others.



As I enter this new year, my heart is filled with gratitude,  HOPE and FAITH.  I hope, pray and believe that this year will be one of the best years I have ever had.



Happy 2017 dear readers and friends.  Here's to an awesome year -- a year full of hope, love, priceless moments, and wonderful surprises!  May God keep us all safe, bless  us with good health and grant us prosperity.  Cheers!