Sunday, May 14, 2017

Twenty-fourth Letter to Sofia

Dearest Sofie,

I wasn't able to write to you on your birthday and I am so sorry for that! Although I know that my greetings have reached you in Heaven I still feel bad that I was not able to write you a letter. You see, Mommy sees this blog as some kind of portal through which she can send her letters to Heaven.

The month of April was a very busy month for your mom. You should know that your mom can do a lot of things so most of the time people ask her help for different things. I really wish you got to know me, Sofie. I think you would have been proud of your mom. :)

Anyway, I was planning to be absent on your birthday so that we could celebrate properly. But  I was asked to write and direct a play and the play was shown on your birthday. I could not be absent because there was no one else to do the work I had to do.

We had a simple dinner celebration at Contis'. Your grandparents on my side were there to celebrate with us. For your birthday cake, I ordered chocolate velvet but I had already sliced the cake before I remembered that I had not yet taken a picture of it.

We may not have been able to celebrate  your birthday the way I wanted to but I know you had a blast in Heaven.

Remember that Daddy and I think and talk about you all the time.  We miss you so!

I love you, dear Sofie!

Happy 2nd year in Heaven!

Hugs and kisses,

Friday, April 7, 2017

Twenty-third Letter to Sofia

My darling Sofia,

You'll be turning two in a couple of weeks.  Even though you are in Heaven I am still excited to celebrate your birthday.  I want it to be special just like last year because you are special and I want
people to know that you matter.

Daddy and I always talk about you.  Sometimes he talks about his plans for you as if you were still around to make his plans come true.   Most of the time, he smells my ears and imagines it's your ears he's smelling.  It's weird, I know.  But in a way, it makes him a little happier.

It's been almost two years but until now I do not understand what happened.  I still don't understand why you were taken from us so soon.  I still don't understand why God gave me a gift He never meant for me to open.  And the sad thing is that I don't think I will ever understand.  Daddy mentioned the other day how you sighed in his arms and I realized that I never even felt you breathe.  It makes me so sad that I never even really felt you except for that time I rubbed my cheek against yours  and kissed you.   Knowing that that memory is slowly fading with time makes me even sadder.  I want so much to remember how your skin felt against mine but the remembrance of it is slowly fading away.

Despite the fact that it's getting harder for me to remember how your skin felt like, I want you to always remember that you will never be forgotten.  You will always be remembered.  You will always be loved, my sweet baby girl.  Mommy will always keep you in her heart.

I love you always, Sofie!  Flying hugs and kisses to Heaven...


Wednesday, March 1, 2017

Midweek Currently

It's the middle of the week and I suddenly find myself wanting to do a Currently post so here I am!

Thinking:  of the two books I want to write

               One of them is a non-fiction book about my first love, which is customer service.  The other is a romantic novel.  I've written so many beginnings and middles of romantic novels but I have never ended one.  Hopefully, when I get to write this one, I will be able to finish it, if only just so I can have something that's finished (published or otherwise).

Craving: for a bubble bath
             I recently stayed in a hotel and had what I only get to have in a hotel -- a long and warm relaxing bubble bath.  Sadly, we don't have a bathtub at home so I only get to take long showers.  :(

Wearing: a light yellow v neck blouse with 3/4 sleeves, brownish/gray pants and flats

Feeling: out of focus
            I should just be thinking of school and my business at the moment.  I cannot afford to lose sight of my goal but these thoughts of writing two books and not even knowing which one to write first is making me lose my focus and momentum.

Loving:  a particular teleserye shown every night at 9:30  on channel 7
            This light romantic comedy makes me feel young again.  I am neither a fan of the heroine nor   any of her possible leading men (there are four of them), but I just like the story and how it brings back memories of being young and falling in love.

Wishing: I was thinner.

             I think I look a lot older because of my weight so I want to lose some pounds.
Unfortunately, although one of my New Year's resolutions was to exercise and lose 20 pounds this year, I have not done any real physical activity except walking around in the classroom.

So that's what my currently is all about.  I really hope I can focus more and get back on track when it comes to my goals.

Sunday, February 12, 2017

10-Year Service Awardee

It's been more than a month since my last post.  I miss blogging but it seems I just can't find time to do it like I used to, specially now that I have another business.  It's been taking a lot of my after-school free time.

I just wanted to share with everyone something that happened in January.  It isn't really big but it was an important milestone in my career as a teacher.  On the 25th of January, I was one of the faculty members who were given service awards.  Dressed in our barongs, we were presented to the students one by one.  I was a ten-year service awardee and I never imagined that I would feel the way I did during the celebration of the eucharist which preceded the awarding.  Mixed feelings of gratitude, humility and joy enveloped me.  I was so thankful to God for blessing me with so much.  Without these blessings I do not think I would have lasted in the teaching profession for this long.

I do not know how long I can still stay in the same institution or in the same profession.  With God's will I am planning to follow a different path after a year.  In any case, may God continue to bless me that I may  continue to be a beacon of light wherever I may be.

To God be the glory!