A Photo of Yourself with 10 Facts - 100 Day Photo Challenge

I am doing a photo challenge that one of my friends suggested for me to do.  And today's prompt is :

A Photo of Yourself with 10 Facts.

I have very few solo pics taken recently and none of them is worth sharing so forgive me if I post something taken four years ago.

Here are ten facts that most people don't know about me:

1. I love posing in front of the camera.

2. At present,  I have four children...one with us and three with God and I am proud of all of them.

3. I love history and everything about it.

4. I am a frustrated theater actress.

5.  I love the bright lights of the stage.

6. I would have been a lawyer, had I not decided to teach kids.

7.  I worry about going home alone at night.

8.  I was once a shy and timid little girl.

9.  I am very stubborn.

10.  I love lazy days.

Guess What I Did Last Weekend

You'd never  guess what I did last Saturday. I attended my former husband's wedding. (Our marriage was declared null and void from the very beginning both by the church and state so technically there was no marriage to begin with but I don't know what else to call him. And besides, I don't want to just call him my son's father because I want to validate the legitimacy of my son's birth.)

So anyway, I attended the occasion together with my son and my husband,  Ruel who is truly such a good sport.   Love him!

My son  played A Thousand Years on his violin for the bridal march and he also acted as a cord sponsor.

This is my son and the other cord sponsor during  the march of the entourage.  I wanted to post the video of him playing A Thousand Years but it was upside down and I didn't know how to rotate it because I couldn't see any option to do so.

    Maybe many of you are wondering how it feels like to see a man you once married marry someone else right in front of your very eyes.  It felt weird. But I sincerely felt happy for them. For many years, I have carried this guilty feeling that I somehow ruined Fidel's  life. He was my first boyfriend and I was 23 when I married him, I was so immature. I expected so much, I expected something like a romantic movie and when I didn't get it, I was disillusioned and became unhappy. I focused on the things he did wrong, and didn't see what he was doing right. I made excuses for the things I did wrong and saw myself as the only victim in our situation.  Now, seeing him happy with another woman, I felt happy too. I  found my happy-ever-after almost three years ago and now he has found his and I just wish them all the best. I pray for their happiness but most specially, I pray that he will become an even better father to our son now that he is happy with his wife.

The newlyweds...and yes, I was the one who took this photo. :)

Two of his brothers were there and though I don't know what kind of story has reached their ears regarding the reason I wanted to have our marriage annulled, they were still the same warm people that they've always been to me. They kissed me and hugged me and never showed any sign of ill feelings towards me. When I told them that it was time for me, Ruel and  my son to leave, his two brothers hugged and kissed me and one of them whispered as he hugged me tight, "You're still my sister."  It was an emotional moment for me because I easily get touched by gestures like this.

Ruel and I had our picture taken with Fidel's granddaughter. Yes, he has a granddaughter from his nephew.   Our sweet Sofia should be almost as old as she is now had Sofia been alive.

This is my son with his Grandpa Fernando from whom he got his second name.  It was so sad seeing him so old and so frail.  He looked so handsome and so strong eighteen years ago when I married his son.

Generally, I was glad that the occasion gave my son a chance to bond with his relatives in his dad's side.  He seldom sees them as they live in faraway Zamboanga City in the island of Mindanao.  And this time, he was able to have some sort of a jamming session with them when the program was over and a lot of the guests had left.  One time, he played "Stand by Me" on the keyboard while his cousin, Iker sang.  He also played two Beatles songs on the electric guitar while his Uncle Balby sang the lyrics.  I loved listening to them and took lots of pictures.  It was truly a moment worth remembering.

With Cousin Iker

My boy and his dad.

I hope and pray that my son is not sad about his dad marrying and that it won't affect him negatively.  I hope he knows how much we love him, and that no matter who my husband is and who his father's wife is, he is our son and though his dad and I live separate lives, we are still his family.  It's just that his family is bigger than most, because he has two dads and now, two moms.  But of course, it is I who loves him best. :)

Twelfth Letter to Sofia

My dear sweet Sofie,

We celebrated your fifth month last Friday.  It was a non-working holiday so Daddy, Kuya and I were free to celebrate it any way we wanted.  And this time, we decided to go to Tagaytay.  This is Mommy's favorite place.  I've been there so many times since I was in sixth grade but I am still fascinated with the beauty of the place.  How I wish we could take you there so you could see the small volcano in the middle of the lake!  Mommy can spend hours just staring at it and will  never get tired.  If you were anything like me, I know it could have easily become your favorite place too.  I love this place so much that Daddy and I decided to hold our wedding in this town.

Tagaytay is only less than two hours drive from where we live if traffic is not so heavy. So, whenever there's time and budget, we usually go there to eat and enjoy the cooler climate. Last Friday, however, being a non-working holiday, the traffic was especially heavy so our stomachs could not wait until we got there to eat our lunch.  We had lunch instead  at a fast food more than a couple of towns away from Tagaytay.  We just had dessert at the Taal Vista Hotel where we bought you the pretty Hello Kitty cupcake.

For ourselves, we ordered tea and two orders of this delicious strawberry cheesecake.

My dear Sofie, I miss you so much!  Lately, I have been seeing a lot of baby girls and they all remind me of you and what I have lost.  I know I haven't lost you and I never will but what I've lost is the opportunity to dress you up in pinks and yellows, to buy you the hair accessories I have always planned on buying for you, to play with you, dance with you and sing with you, to tickle you and laugh with you, to share secrets with you when you're older, and all the things that moms and daughters do together.  These are the things I have lost and they are a lot.  Most of all, I have lost the chance to get to know the beautiful and wonderful creature that you are.

I love you so much!!!

Flying hugs and kisses to Heaven,
Mommy

Sunday Currently (Turned Monday Currently) vol. 2

Here's my Sunday Currently on a Monday.  I'm sure it's still Sunday to most of the bloggers who have linked up with Siddathornton but where I am, it's Monday night.  

I am currently...

reading my students' make up quizzes.  After that, I'll be checking their projects.  It just seems so endless.

writing nothing but scores, scores and scores on my record sheet.

listening to our wedding soundtrack.  Right now, Ever After is playing.  That's the song that was played when we were first introduced as Mr. and Mrs. at our reception.

thinking that I really really need a good vacation and plenty of rest.  It's been more than a week and I still have the cold I wrote about in my last post.

smelling like hair color.  I bought L'oreal Excellence Creme yesterday to put highlights on my hair but it didn't work the way I wanted it to.  Ruel, my husband kept telling me to have my hair done at a salon but I didn't want to spend too much money on my hair so Ruel and I just did my hair last night after a lot of grumbling on his part.  I regret my decision though.  All I got is the same black hair plus the  bad smell of hair color which is proving to be stubborn.  I can still smell it even after I have shampooed my hair.  Maybe next time, I should listen to my husband.  I hope I remember this next time.  Hahaha!

wishing for an extension of the deadline for the submission of our grades.

wearing GAP pajamas and shirt.  I'm not yet ready for bed.  Still haven't had dinner but this is mostly how I look when I am at home.  I'm always in my pajamas.

loving the travelers notebook that I sewed myself.

hoping to have more free time soon so that I can finish sewing notebooks for my friends.

Let's all have a happy and productive week.  Good vibes!!!

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