It's been two months and four days since you went to Heaven. We celebrated the day you earned your wings last Thursday. I bought a cake for you which your dad, Kuya, Lolo and I shared after dinner. Lola was not able to partake of it because she was with your cousin Emilio.
It's been over two months. The tears come less often now but it doesn't mean that I have forgotten you. I still want you here with me. I want you to be here with me so much! I want to be with you in Heaven but not yet. I still have a lot to do here. I still have to give your Dad a strong, normal and healthy baby, hopefully, a baby girl who looks like me. And I still have to watch her grow up and teach her things, things that I have always wanted to teach you but never had a chance to. I still have to teach her how to be a decent human being. I still have to see her and your Kuya graduate from college and have good stable jobs, happy in their chosen vocations before I could go to you in Heaven. Your dad and I still have to celebrate at least our thirty-fifth wedding anniversary because I promised him we would grow old together. Someday, I promise we would be together forever. Someday when I am sure everyone I love are doing fine and great here on Earth, I will go to be with you. It may seem like a long time but hopefully, the time in Heaven is different. Hopefully, the years on earth seem just like days in Heaven. That way, you won't have to wait too long.
I love you my darling. So much! I miss you every day and there's not a day I didn't wish you were in my arms! I carry you in my heart, always!
All my love and flying kisses,
Mommy
I wish you didn't have to write these letters. Sending you lots of love and strength your words are so beautiful. I believe Heaven is such a glorious place there is no need to even count the days. Xx
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