Watching my favorite noontime show this afternoon reminded me how it felt to be in love and not being loved back in return. I think I spent half of my life feeling this way...although I have this feeling that half of that time I wasn't really in love, that half of that time I was just in love with the idea of love. Still...in my young self's mind it was unrequited love and as absurd as it may seem, unrequited love made the subject of my love even more desirable....because it was just like the heroine in a book or movie who fell in love with the hero long before he realizes he has fallen in love with her too. My young self longed for the complications of love that one would usually read in books or watch in movies. Do you think I'm weird? I've always thought so...but maybe just maybe I'm not the only woman who has felt this way.
Anyway, back to unrequited love...when this girl on TV sort of bared her heart and soul in a poem she wrote and read to this guy whose response afterwards was lacking in honesty and feeling, I felt like I wanted to just take back everything she said. It was so embarrassing...something my younger self would likely to have done (but not probably on national TV).
It also reminded me of one of my favorite scenes in Smallville (although I've never been a Chloe and Clark fan). I searched for it on youtube and I'd like to share it with you.
Today, I am no longer that girl who loves but is not loved back. I no longer have to think, to wonder, to analyze and over analyze things. Today, I am a woman who loves and is loved in return for everything I am and despite of everything I'm not. I have found the man who would love me no matter what I looked like or smelled like. With him, there is no wondering, no analyzing. With him, there's only the "knowing"...that I am loved, as simple and as uncomplicated as that.
So for those who are still single, for those who are still wondering and analyzing the things he does and says, or things he doesn't do and say, someday, it will all end. The right man is out there searching just as you are...you just have to keep your eyes and your heart open for him.
Let's all enjoy the love tomorrow and every day. Whether we are single or not, there are enough sources of love in the world for everyone. Receive love and spread it around. Happy Valentine's Day!